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It All Seemed to Matter So Much Once

I dreamed about Rossney.

Why the hell would I dream about Rossney?

Rossney is not someone I’ve thought about in eighteen billion years, and it isn’t as though I ever “knew” him in any real sense. He was one of the denizens of the Well, the original “social media.” Very, very, very smart guy, and he wrote like an angel, but we had a tremendous falling out.

I do remember the details, but they seem so absurd to me now: On the Well, there were public spaces and there were private spaces, and the private spaces were mostly used to bash people in the public spaces. Rossney bashed Tom in the private space after Tom died, and I got so pissed off that I told everyone what Rossney had been saying behind their backs, which was a Violation of Community Standards yada, yada, yada, and led to me metamorphosing into a kind of Well Lucifer.


It all seemed to matter so much once.

Anyway, in the dream Rossney sidled up to me and asked me if I would mind trading shifts every once in a while.

And I said, Sure, no problem.


I spent yesterday binging on all remaining episodes of Maniac.

Oh, I did go for a run. Because exercise.

But the rest of the day I was plopped in front of my computer.

I liked Maniac very much, but I’m not sure I would recommend the show to anyone.

What I liked about watching Maniac compressed like that was that it was kind of like dropping LSD but without the nausea and the hallucinations.

What I remember best about acid was that sense of narratives contained within narratives, so that the narratives compounded upon one another. And all the narratives seemed to rotate around maybe half a dozen weird and seemingly random symbolic reference points. Within each narrative, the reference points were always dealt into a different pattern, kind of like shuffling a Tarot deck. But they were always the same reference points.

Maniac captured this essence of LSD amazingly well, I thought.

But I’m not sure I would have had that same sense if I hadn’t binged the show.

The show also captured that sense of plunging back into mundane reality after an acid trip that I remember so, so well—you have that sense that everything has changed in some extraordinarily profound sense, but, of course, nothing has really changed.

I could never do psychedelics again. So binge-watching Maniac is about as close as I’m gonna get.


In news of the American political theater—pure Kabuki, in case you were wondering—it looks like a second woman is willing to testify to Kavanaugh’s sexual misconduct. This one might even be able to describe the SOTUS presumptive’s junk! Which we can add to Stormy Daniels’ description of the Presidential junk.

How about a calendar? The Putzes of Washington D.C.!

A pattern of allegations actually satisfies my qualms about unfair accusations because where there’s smoke, etcetera.

But Jaysus, I am so fucking tired of the whole tawdry spectacle.

Though I’m not sure what the solution is.

Obviously, anyone who seeks high elective office is gonna be aggressive in a kind of way that probably spills over into the libido.

And the solution is not an all female governing class. I worked in large groups of women back when I was a nurse long enough to know how truly awful women can be to one another. Like chickens pecking down the chain.

Maybe we should figure out a way to do away with “governance.”

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Sep. 24th, 2018 02:48 pm (UTC)
Telling everyone what was said behind their backs is so awesome lol.
Sep. 24th, 2018 03:09 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Yes, I have never felt a moment's remorse about that. Rossney behaved simply horribly.
Sep. 24th, 2018 03:39 pm (UTC)
This film Mandy is very much like an acid trip. It's like a metalogue where the discussion of the thing resembles the thing talked about.
Sep. 24th, 2018 03:49 pm (UTC)
Ditto for this show Maniac.
Sep. 25th, 2018 12:26 am (UTC)
I started watching. Jesus! The Milgram Institute! Milgram was a sick, sadistic motherfucker. I'm already creeped out.
Sep. 24th, 2018 03:46 pm (UTC)
From the "but, wait, there's more..." file:

Rosenstein, blah-blah-blah, as The Daily Outrage/Distraction continues.

We are certainly living in interesting times.
Sep. 24th, 2018 03:50 pm (UTC)
I suspect all times are equally interesting to those living in them.

We just have to put up with a 24/7 news cycle. :-)
Sep. 24th, 2018 04:02 pm (UTC)
While I'm not as old as some, I have been around a while and I cannot recall anything quite like the current state of non-stop nonsense affairs...

May be just that we have it thrust in our faces through the multitude of media, but damn...

My new catch-phrase is the somewhat sarcastic "Really?!!?".

Edited at 2018-09-24 04:07 pm (UTC)
Sep. 24th, 2018 04:10 pm (UTC)
I cannot recall anything quite like the current state

Oh, I don't know. Watergate was intense. The Bill Clinton impeachment hearings were intense.

The difference is that they weren't being rammed down your throat 24 hours a day.
Sep. 24th, 2018 04:25 pm (UTC)
From the "not to put too fine a point on it" department:

Granted, Watergate and Monicagate were very interesting and all-consuming news cycles with many convolutions that created much controversy, but these days, coupled with the 24/7 coverage, we have some new bullshit almost every single day.
Do you even remember what the big poop was 6 months ago? Comey who? Inauguration crowd what? Stormy Daniels when? et al., et al., et al....
Sep. 24th, 2018 04:36 pm (UTC)
We could argue about this all day!

But it is the media's doing. They're trying to sell you on their utility. On their indispensability. And it has an almost Schrodinger-effect-like effect on the news cycle itself.
Sep. 24th, 2018 05:30 pm (UTC)
I have a friend who mentions Schrodinger, and his cat, often (he claims to be an engineer, or some such thing, so I suppose he feels a certain obligation to be esoteric) and I, the semi-educated/partially-igrint rube that I am, usually don't see the relevance to his statements, either.
Sep. 24th, 2018 05:55 pm (UTC)
Schrodiner is famous for his uncertainty theory, which—vastly oversimplified—states you affect what you are observing.

Very applicable to the role of media in current culture.

Edited at 2018-09-24 05:55 pm (UTC)
Sep. 25th, 2018 01:21 am (UTC)
Excellent summary. I attribute it to your acid days :)
Sep. 25th, 2018 10:51 am (UTC)
I have absolutely no use for the media these days. Fox News, MSNBC, The New York Times, The New Yorker. Tear their bullpens down. Sow the ground with salt.

We can keep The Economist.
Sep. 25th, 2018 03:02 am (UTC)
I think it would have been interesting to drop acid with you back in the day.
Sep. 25th, 2018 10:48 am (UTC)
That's a compliment. :-) Thank you.
Sep. 26th, 2018 03:09 pm (UTC)
I will buy that calendar, even though all proceeds go to their defense funds.'

I'm waiting for the third person to "come forward." Hey have you noticed that "come forward" has now come (forward) to have a very specific meaning? Language evolution in action!
Sep. 26th, 2018 05:40 pm (UTC)
Ha, ha. Yes!

And that third person has come (forward.)
Sep. 27th, 2018 02:01 am (UTC)
I know. When I saw that I kinda slapped my forehead. Now, where's #4?
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